"You deserve sunshine and flowers, not tissues and sadness."
- Mom, during our hour long phone call
I have a vitamin D deficiency and its makes me depressed and anxious. I started having nightmares again and last night was the worst one yet. My grandma told me to take more vitamin D because I’m overreacting and I need to act normal.
Fuck you.
He looks worse than yesterday and I just found out he has some internal bleeding so that’s awesome. I don’t know how to stay strong. I just want to cry, but I can’t because I have to be strong for my grandpa.
Gbob’s surgery went horrible. A couple blood vessels ruptured and his aorta almost ruptured too. He’s been out of surgery for 4 hours and none of us have been allowed to see him yet.
